Well, it's been four and a half weeks since school started. I feel like I've been doing pretty good, and my grades reflect that.. but of course, it's still the beginning of the year. I ALWAYS feel like I'm doing good at the beginning. Doesn't everybody?
I've stayed home the past couple of days with the flu.. it's absolutely miserable. Staying home is always so stressful, though. There's so much work to be done, and yet, I don't want to get anyone else sick. Luckily, I have a wonderful boyfriend who brings me the work I miss at Southridge, while I can keep in contact with Ms. Lefevre with gmail. Of course, this means I get to at least attempt to keep my grades up. If there's one thing I'm exceling at, it's being sick and keeping all the work that I can done.
Speaking of excelling, have any of you had a chance to take a look at the notes I take during class? I do NOT understand how I can take 3 pages of notes when everyone else has a half page, and I still end up having a hard time on tests. I can tell you, though, if you missed a day and want to copy notes, hit me up. You'll get all the information you need, plus way more. Notes are a thing I take pride in, even if I end up with seven binders full of them at the end of the year.
On the other hand, I'm sure that no one has noticed yet, but I tend to try to keep to myself. The words "team" and "group"... they scare me. I don't mind the whole participation thing, but what I do mind is that I'm going to have to work together with other people. I've done this more than enough times to realize that it never quite works out. If we don't choose our groups, there's so many things that just won't happen for the group. There's groups that'll get together and sit there, quiet, even when we're not shy. There's groups that don't know what they're supposed to be doing, and decide not to ask what's going on and try to figure out what to do based on what other groups are doing. There's so many varibles. There's people who just can't get along, and that's my problem. I don't want to be around people who are going to argue. I don't want to be part of a team that can't do anything right without banning someone. Even if a bunch of people who end up getting together and just click.. Well, then I'm the odd one out. I don't want to mess up the synchronization. (Is that how you spell it? Microsoft Word locked on me... It won't even let me type in it.) Here's the issue when you get right to it: I don't want to screw anything up. I'm always so afraid it'll be me.
However, when there's something I'm knowledgable in when no one else has a clue, I can get right up and tell them what's going on. I'll let them all know and we'll all get it done. No problem. Done. I will do my best to get everyone doing something, and we'll exceed our own expectations. It's always about getting better, right?